“Remember that it’s all in your head” - Gorillaz

“Remember that it’s all in your head” - Gorillaz

“At least you've not got cancer”, a few people said to me after word of my diagnosis had got around. Or the more drastic: “It could be worse, you could be dead”.

On a bad day, I’d argue that these statements themselves disallowed me any level of suffering at all, implying I should just wheesht and get on with it. On a good day, I learned to just nod and “Yes, that is true”. Which it was, don’t get me wrong. Of course I preferred the alternative to death. 

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Santa brings a New Type One Plan

Santa brings a New Type One Plan

I had tried to leave my diabetes at home when I went on holiday. This was the start of the end, just before the New Plan. Reading my journals back I can see now that I was in denial. It had been two months of up and downs. I wanted off the rollercoaster ride, refused to accept what was happening to my body, wanted life to carry on as normal.

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Stop being a perfectionist

Stop being a perfectionist

Now on that first Monday, a dreary November day, my nurse was telling me I may feel better by Christmas but that it could take longer. I explained that life was ruled by the diary not to mention a small child and a business – I needed to be better. I’m a perfectionist. That’s when she mentioned “flexibility”. I winced.

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Ditzy? What me!

Ditzy? What me!

Ditzy is not a word I’d use to describe myself. Yet the other day I put the milk in the cupboard. I was 15 minutes late for a business meeting. I misplace things. And while my list making continues, it is, sadly, not with such glee. I’m starting to think I might have to reassess my view of myself.

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